I’m done with College!
Actually no, not really at all. I just finished my first semester of Freshman year but it has been such a journey and it honestly feels like I’ve been at college for 4 years. College was not what I expected it to be, and I’m extremely thankful for that.
I had an image of college built up in my own mind that consisted of adulthood and freedom that would radically improve my life. This proved to be partially true as I learned so much in such a small amount of time, but I also learned that life isn’t that much different than it use to be. I’m still the same person. I like and do all the same things I did in highschool, but just in a different place. I have made amazing new friends, but I still have all the same friends that I love immensely. I expected so much more to happen in my world to enter me into the college life, but I learned that change will only come when I put in effort and work. Almost everyday I objectively look at my life decisions and brainstorm if I want to make the same decisions or whether to make changes in my life. Going to College made me scrutinize myself because I was able to restart as a person where no one knew who I was. This scrutiny was a little unhealthy at first because it effected my self-esteem, but it has also taught me to be the best person I can be, fully accepting my flaws and uniqueness.
With the New Year usually comes resolutions, which are always tricky and hard to think of all at once. For me, after a semester of college and constantly reconsidering what I want to do with my life I came up with hardly anything, which I’m really excited about. Having a long list of resolutions and goals are important to push you, but I believe that having a few abstract goals are essential to help guide life, and all the other small resolutions will fall into place. This past year I learned so much about so many people by spending time with them and hearing about what they think and believe. This has pushed me to try and understand as much as possible about people and their interesting lives. My first resolution is to better understand myself and my purpose. My second resolution is to continue to strive to understand people and love them for who they are. My third and final resolution is to other’s stories and miscellaneous concepts through photography and hopefully film. I want to be an instrument that allows others to be heard and understood.
College starts back up in about a week and although I’m nervous for another round of classes, I’m pumped to grow as a person with other people and better understand my purpose in the world.