The Comfort of Crying

Crying is such an odd thing. To think that our body has a natural response to emotions is so cool and emphasizes the validity of our emotions. It is very normal to cry; our body is prepared to handle whatever you are feeling. Crying is such a beautiful release of built up feelings. It can be an overflow of joy and passion in an intense moment of awe, or a breakdown of sorrow and pain. Either way, tears allow an outpour followed by a satisfied relief. Post-cry exhaustion is so comforting, like an old sweater knit by your Grandma. The sweater can be beautiful, or horribly ugly, but regardless it gives warmth to the cold. People cry for so many different reasons, but I believe it’s the body’s way to comfort its inhabiting soul, by knitting it a sweater of sorts.

 

That’s what I set out to photograph. I don’t believe I am done with this concept. Here is the main image and some outtakes, but don’t be surprise to see more of this yarn in the future. Also, thank you to Marissa for encouraging me to shoot, being a wonderful model, and putting up with me.

House Keeper

This is a series I shot on Saturday at sunrise in an enchanting abandoned house with the coolest people of all time (Mason and Marissa). 

Walking through this house I was so drawn to all the history found in photos and notebooks and started to wonder why this house has come to its current state. Why did the people who lived here leave? Where did they go? Why didn't anyone move in?

Thinking about this I wanted to shoot a series that showed someone who had stayed behind with this abandoned house that never leaves and wants more people to join her. I found a doorknob and key and used them as props, since without them you cannot leave a room. The subject is elusivley showing off these items to tease the viewer who is now trapped inside this house.

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Music

A little over a year ago I stumbled upon the song “Your Son” by from Indian Lakes on Spotify. It is an extremely passionate acoustic song that caught my complete attention. I then began to listen to more music from this band and it wasn’t long until it was my favorite band of all time. The music reaches a long range of acoustic melodies to loud and honest songs. In almost every state of my life: joyful or melancholy, there is a song that relates to the way I am feeling. My 2015 Spotify year in review further confirmed my attached to this music as From Indians Lakes was my topped streamed Artist of the year and without a doubt will be in 2016 as well. From Indian Lake’s music has also inspired my photography in their lyrics and expressive moods.

 

This offers some background to how ecstatic I was when I learned that From Indian Lakes would be come to Denver to play an acoustic set. To know that I would soon hear the songs that have played a large part in my life was hard to comprehend, but little did I know it would turn out to be much more than this.

 

Long story short I was able to go and hang out/interview Joey Vannucchi (From Indian Lakes) and take photos at the show. To talk to the artist I find most inspiration in was literally unreal and I’m so thankful for the experience. He was super cool and was so passionate about his upcoming music it was so fun to be with him. Also when he preformed it was also kinda hard to believe. I own his music on vinyl and to close my eyes at his live show and hear sounds better than any recording I’ve ever heard was something that isn’t always the case at concerts. Each song took me back to different times in the past year so strongly but in an amplified intensity it was, again, super cool.

 

Also, crazy story, 3 years ago I was introduced to a musician, Soren Bryce, through Gavyn Bailey and it turns out SHE WAS THE ONE OPENING FOR FROM INDIAN LAKES. So after following her music for 3 years online I finally got to see her preform and she was SO incredibly talented and it all basically felt like a dream.

 

I just want to thank Joey and Soren for making incredible music and taking the time to hang out with me on Thursday, I will never forget the experience and being around you both had a very large impact on me. Thank you.

 

The interview with Joey will be up soon on cravethesound.com

 

And with this I officially begin a new chapter in my photography: music. Go check out the new tab under Work to see what I’ve been working on!

January 3rd

I’m done with College!

Actually no, not really at all. I just finished my first semester of Freshman year but it has been such a journey and it honestly feels like I’ve been at college for 4 years. College was not what I expected it to be, and I’m extremely thankful for that.

 

I had an image of college built up in my own mind that consisted of adulthood and freedom that would radically improve my life. This proved to be partially true as I learned so much in such a small amount of time, but I also learned that life isn’t that much different than it use to be. I’m still the same person. I like and do all the same things I did in highschool, but just in a different place. I have made amazing new friends, but I still have all the same friends that I love immensely. I expected so much more to happen in my world to enter me into the college life, but I learned that change will only come when I put in effort and work. Almost everyday I objectively look at my life decisions and brainstorm if I want to make the same decisions or whether to make changes in my life. Going to College made me scrutinize myself because I was able to restart as a person where no one knew who I was. This scrutiny was a little unhealthy at first because it effected my self-esteem, but it has also taught me to be the best person I can be, fully accepting my flaws and uniqueness.

 

With the New Year usually comes resolutions, which are always tricky and hard to think of all at once. For me, after a semester of college and constantly reconsidering what I want to do with my life I came up with hardly anything, which I’m really excited about. Having a long list of resolutions and goals are important to push you, but I believe that having a few abstract goals are essential to help guide life, and all the other small resolutions will fall into place. This past year I learned so much about so many people by spending time with them and hearing about what they think and believe. This has pushed me to try and understand as much as possible about people and their interesting lives. My first resolution is to better understand myself and my purpose. My second resolution is to continue to strive to understand people and love them for who they are. My third and final resolution is to other’s stories and miscellaneous concepts through photography and hopefully film. I want to be an instrument that allows others to be heard and understood.

 

College starts back up in about a week and although I’m nervous for another round of classes, I’m pumped to grow as a person with other people and better understand my purpose in the world.

 

Portland

What is it that makes me happy?

This is a question that I’ve been asking myself so much recently. Going to college has shown me so much of the world and I’m ready to find where I feel comfortable, and explore the places I don’t.

 

In that frame of mind, my friends and I decided to road trip from Colorado to Portland.

Gas was cheap, we had a few days off school, and friends to stay with. It was a perfect storm for a road trip. Although, driving through a snow storm through Nebraska almost totally destroyed our trip, we made it through. 19 hours in the car, minimal stops, and plenty of good songs to get us through

 

We arrived in a new place where the air is moist and refreshing, and the people even more so (not so much moist, but refreshing). Davis and Josh were kind enough to let Katie, Tyler and I stay in their apartment, which would become our new home for the next 3 nights. I don’t use the word “home” lightly at all. We knew each other from Instagram, but we had never met in person. This might seem intimidating to some people, but I couldn’t have been more excited. The love and joy we experienced through Davis and Josh was so genuine and made us feel like apart of a family.

 

The next few days were filled with amazing journeys to downtown Portland, several incredible waterfalls, and the western coastline. We were accompanied by equally-incredible humans who would become great friends. Paul, Josh, Paarsa, Savannah, Cole, and Hanna earned a spot in my heart and long term memory. I will never forget these people or places, which shouldn’t be hard because I am confident that I will be back soon.

 

Driving across the country to end up at the apartment of people that I have never met before was one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. Through Instagram and photography, I was able to make connections that I kept for years. I practically grew up with these people online, and getting to meet them was so natural and rewarding. I am so passionate about these people and it drives me to go out and meet all I’ve come to know through the internet

 

What is it that makes me happy?

Portland, for one.

But also my love for people that God has given me and continues to grow in me.